SLEEP......
I long for the day when my entire family is under one roof.....then maybe sleep will come. During this entire process their has only been a short time where I have felt rested. It was right after we got the call for our court date. My body relaxed and I was just able to enjoy life. It was wonderful. I know that once we bring Kenzie home my sleep will be different because I will have a baby but when I do sleep it will be peaceful. I wont wake up through the night checking for an email. I wont go to bed with thoughts of her and how she is doing on my mind. I will finally be able to relax. I so desperately want to enjoy this season....to be patient...to wait on God's timing.....to rest in His goodness and peace. But I know that it is not going to happen. I know myself. As much as I try to fake it to everyone around me....I am a mess. I feel discouraged about everything. I just want an email....I just want a call.....I just want to be with my baby girl....
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