You know that feeling....that feeling you get in the pit of your stomach when you realize that life isn't going to work out how you had planned? Surely you know it? We have all had those moments in our life where it seems like everything is going to change and all we know to do is "hold on tight" because it might get bumpy.
Not gonna lie. These past several months have been so hard and full of change. I seriously have felt like I have taken one blow after another.
First it was my marriage.....Richard and I went through something that shook us to the core....we didn't know if we could or would survive. But because of GOD'S GRACE and a whole lotta' prayer and forgiveness we are on the mend. Second was my health.....I have been on this stinkin' health journey for way to long and just a few weeks ago got news that wasn't exactly what I wanted to hear. Third was career changes for my hubby (more on that in a future post) and me going back to work full time. And fourth was our journey to another baby. Changes that we never saw coming, news we never thought we would hear, and for the first time uncertainity as to what God has planned for our family. To say that these last several months have been hard.....would be the understatement of the year. Just the other day my sister asked me "How do you do it? How can one person experience so much pain yet still smile and keep on going?" My response to her (through my tears)....."I just figure God has something amazing planned for me and my family and one day he will use this messed up girl as a testimony for HIS GLORY." I can't imagine going through all of this just so that I can keep it to myself. I don't know when that time will come or who will listen....but God has a plan. His plan may not be revealved to me the way I WANT....but isn't that called faith? We must have faith in all circumstances....even the ones that literally bring us to our knees.
I am not sure why I wrote this post. Maybe because I just want to get it all off my chest or maybe because someone else needs to hear that they are not alone. We all have "stuff". It is no fun to deal with "stuff". But the cool thing....God can use that "stuff" for a bigger purpose. Not too long ago a dear friend said this to me.
"God can redeem any situation and make it into something beautiful"
Let God redeem you! Run to him. Let Him be your comfort, your stronghold, your security. Life (especially the Christian life) isn't going to be easy, we are going to get kicked in the gut, have the wind knocked out of us. Satan is going to do anything and everything he can to bring you (us) down. He doesn't care what it takes or who it effects. Whether it is your marriage, your health, your career, or your adoption journey.
"Let go and Let God!!"